2006 ... THE BIG YEAR

So, every new year it seems like I hear more an more people utter the phrase "This is the year!" What they are referring to is the new year being the year that everything happens for them. This year has been overly saturated with a nonstop rush of people, several I hardly know, saying "This is the year!" to me specifically, meaning that they sense, somewhere in the universe, that 2006 will be the year that THESAP achieves "SUCCESS". I put the word "SUCCESS" in quotes because it means different things for different people. For me, and for the people telling me "This is the year!" it means success on the commercial level. I do feel I have had great success creatively for several years straight now. Unfortunately, the cost of this success has been a depletion of anything resembling finances for me. I made a great movie. I also worked about 18 hours a day for 6 months to do that. Plus, another year of dedication and most of my waking hours spent promoting the film and putting together little extras and wonderful other bells and whistles type thangs to really knock my baby out of the park. I don't even want to mention the peanuts I accepted as a wage during this time. I can say that a great portion of the time there weren't even any peanuts at all.

WHAT DOES ALL THIS MEAN?

If "This is the year!" really does mean I will achieve the financial side of the "SUCCESS" coin, I say flip the bitch. I am overdue. And for Christ's sake, please let those who uttered that damned phrase to me so many times over the past few weeks truly be motivated by some higher being, some universal energy that has compelled them to speak those words to me so often. Because the pessimistic translation of that phrase is "Damn, we're all getting older and nobody's getting richer. I'm betting my nuts on the farm and talking out of my ass in hopes that positive thinking actually does make you crap gold. Put it all on RED BEEYOTCH!"

-sap out